So, why do I blurt my problem out to God? Let me repeat; there is no denying the fact that on a basic level, I want the connection to improve! But more than that, I talk with God all the time, so why not about this? Ah, and as we chat away I find myself asking for patience and to give up my foolish self-importance. I find myself questioning what I might glean from this inconvenience and what might change for the good because of it.
At now, at this very moment, Im wondering who is leading our conversation, God or me? Probably both of us.