Do you ever think that if you don’t pray for someone pretty much all the time, that person won’t make it-- that all will be lost for them, that you make all the difference, that…. (you fill it in)? It’s another example of the ‘savior complex’ that I mentioned yesterday. Actually, it’s one of my major, on-going themes.
On a rational level my prayer isn’t going to make or break any deal. But on the spiritual plane, well, I believe it does. When I say that prayer matters, million questions burst forth, unanswerable but worth asking. Maybe it’s all in the questions. But it’s also in the St. Paul telling us to pray without ceasing.
For sure I have to keep praying, however often, whatever I say or do. I pray because I feel God is calling me to do so. What does that mean? I have no idea that I can articulate, except to admit that I’m just going on faith. Faith makes little rational sense to me but it compels me walk with God and try to live though a God lens. And what does that mean? The conversation never ends. Nothing makes sense; everything make sense.